Monday, October 11, 2010

Happy Birthday to my baby girl!

How could it be possible that 30 years ago today I was looking down at my beautiful baby girl and feeling a love that no one could ever explain. I remember the long nights and exhausting days taking care of you as a newborn. All the while I had to keep saying to myself...enjoy these moments because they will be gone and I will never get them back. Cuddling you and holding you against my chest while you slept is a feeling that I can remember like it was yesterday.

How could it be possible that 5 years later I was putting you on the bus for your first day of kindergarten. I remember everyone saying that the school years will fly by. Enjoy each moment of these interesting, frustrating, fun and joyous days because they will be over before you know it.

How could it be possible that I watched you walk across the stage as you graduated from college. When we moved you to Carbondale for your first year of college I remember everyone telling me that if you thought grade school and high school flew by, wait until college. I remember watching you in the rear view mirror as we drove away...leaving my baby girl 300 miles away from home without her Mom!!! Could it be possible that 6 years passed that quickly as you completed your BA and MA in English?

How could it be possible that my little girl was now a grown woman getting married? Where did those years go? How could they have passed so quickly? I remember everyone saying.."wait until the grandbabies start coming." Your life will take on a whole new meaning.

How could it be possible that my sweet baby girl was now looking down at her baby girl....not yet understanding how quickly the years fly by. As I would hold Addie against my chest as she slept, I couldn't help but think about the days that I rocked her Mommy to sleep the same way. As I looked at the love in your face as you saw your baby girl for the first time, I couldn't help but remember that same feeling when I saw you for the first time.

How could it be possible that my sweet baby girl now has a son. As you watched Addie grow from a baby to a little girl, I know that you are now realizing how quickly time flies and that these hard, frustrating, exhilirating, beautiful moments with your children will be gone in the blink of an eye.

How could it be possible that I am now Nana to two beautiful grandchildren? I look forward to the next 30 years with them as I watch you continue to grow into a beautiful Mother who will wonder how time has gone so quickly! Enjoy the moments!

"I'll love you forever, I'll love you for always. As long as I'm living my baby you'll be." Happy 30th birthday baby girl.

I love you Jenny,


Angie said...

Wow that was beautiful, and I am now officially crying haha :)

Amy said...

And I'm crying too...I guess the writing skills are genetic! What a beautiful post!

Jen said...

Damn it mama!!! I said I wasn't going to cry today!!! Thank you so much for this beautiful post!! I love you so much. You are my best friend...and always will be. Thank you for making my 30th birthday so very special. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

The Apple Pie Gal said...

Awe, Jan that was an awesome post! Happy Birthday Jen!!! xoxoxo

Connie said...

You made me cry. What a way you have with words, my dear friend. Love~Connie

Chelsi said...

I cried also. :) I also think it's funny how parallel the two of your posts were!!! :)

Jan said...

Thanks everyone! I cried while I was writing it!

Chelsi - I was shocked when I published my blog post and then went and read Jens! We always did think alike!!